जब उसने कहा था

बहुत पहले उसने मुझसे पहले एक बात कही थी । तब मैंने उस से कह दिया की अभी मेरे पास वक़्त नहीं है उसके लिए । फिर भी वो मुझसे कहता रहा की ये दिन मेरे पास शायद कभी नहीं आएगा  । लेकिन शायद मुझे पहले से ही इस बात का अंदाज़ा था की वो मुहसे वही अलफ़ाज़ ज़रूर कहेगा और मैं उसे ठुकरा कर उसे आगे बढ़ने को कहूँगी  । उसे ये नहीं पता था की मैं उसे वो नहीं दे सकती जिसका वो हक़दार है । फिर भी वो पीछे लगा रहा और मुझसे वही अलफ़ाज़ कहता रहा ॥ और मैंने उसे ठुकरा दिया ।

उस बात को अब १ वर्ष गुज़र चुका है... अभी भी वो मेरे इंतज़ार मैं डूबा है ।

एक दिन न जाने कहा से उसे ये बात पता चल गयी की मैं ठीक नहीं हू... उस दिन के बाद से उसने मुझसे वो अलफ़ाज़ कहने बंद कर दिए ॥ थोड़ा अजीब ज़रूर लगा, पर इस बात की ख़ुशी भी थी की अब उसे मुझसे बेहतर कोई और मिल जाये...

पर मेरी सोच गलत निकली! वो मुझे भूल नहीं था !! बस उसके प्यार दिखने का अंदाज़ बदल गया था....पहले वो मुझे कह कर जताता था की वो मुझसे कितना प्यार करता है....पर अब जब उसने मेरी जान बचाने के लिए अपनी दोनों किडनी मुघे डोनेट करदी.... तो अब मुझे इस बात का अफ़सोस होता है... और याद आते है वो दिन...'

जब उसने मुझसे कहा था.... हम दोनों के भले ही जिस्म अलग है... पर हमारी रूह एक है ॥

वो अब मेरे साथ नहीं है...पर फिर भी मेरी आत्मा उस से जुड़ चुकी है...

भले ही हम एक साथ नहीं है...पर वो मेरा इंतज़ार कर रहा है...इस दुनिया के पर उस दुनिया में...

तब शायद हम एक हो जाये ॥

-उन्नति बंसल

    Today I got a phone call at my residence

It was the Christmas Eve and I was sitting on my couch reading my favourite novel Pride and Prejudice near the glass window enjoying the heat of the sun.

Then I heard the ringing of my cell, I wrinkled my eyebrows as it was the unknown number. Signing I picked up the call and said “Hello” ……

The strangest part was that no one said anything, but I knew who that person was “hello” I said again. I can hear rough breathing of him and it has been 3 weeks since we last talked and I can never forgive of what he did to me and to our unborn child.

I was 5 weeks pregnant I wanted to tell him about the baby on our anniversary which was the day before we got separated. I caught him cheating on me with some other woman in our bedroom.

He said he was drunk and thought that the other woman was me but I knew him better and caught him easily as lying was really not his forte and I left the house without another word. 

I can’t explain in words what it was like to caught someone you love immensely with some other person, it’s like something deep inside of my chest broke and crushed into million pieces. He found out about my pregnancy a few days ago when my doctor called at my previous house for the remainder of the monthly check-up and he picked up the call and got to know about it.

I don’t want him near me and my baby ever because once a Casanova always remain the same. But they say that one only remain angry with someone who you love deeply. I still love him, but how can I forgot the scene before me when I caught him with some other woman.

“Hello” I said again now I was crying and silent tear was falling off my face….why? I questioned him while stammering. All he said was he can never leave me and our baby and he is sorry for what he did and for sabotaging our love with his blunder.

I stopped him and said what’s done is done nothing can be fixed and be back like nothing happened. I ended the phone call and the poison that he soiled in my heart would always be vengeance for him for the rest of my life.

-Unnati Bansal

The day when i realized...

               The day when I realised

You were sitting on the first bench of the classroom to get everything written while the professor gave his lecture. Everyone was bored, some were even dazing among themselves; you were the only one who was listening to what the lecture was all about. Don’t get me wrong but seriously any sane person would feel obligated to just run out of this class take a deep fresh air because of suffocation that some subjects may tend to make you feel.

And there was you sitting all alone scrubbing noted that the teacher was teaching, oh!!!! How much I hate you and like to pull your leg and love to see your dark red shade face when you’re furious and come back with witty attitude. 

Because although I hated you there was some sort of respect was there for you in my heart, because you were the only one who had this tendency to make my skin crawl and blood boil with your sharp response.

At first I always thought that how dare you talk to me or even look at me with that dark caramel, golden eyes of yours. Then all of a sudden it hit me like cold water was splashed on me. I was obsessed with you and damn I can’t get my mind off you.

I still remember that day of our class reunion when you wore a silk gown with your hair done with few tendrils falling on your face. That time I could swear to all Gods present in this universe that my heart had stopped beating and I forgot to take a breath unless my mate told me to keep breathing.

That was the day I realized that I cannot lose you to any one, because I wanted to keep you mine. 

I wanted a life with you, I wanted to walk beside you for the rest of my life to give my life a meaning, a purpose, because I had realized that I need a woman in my life who can stand for herself, who can keep me on my toes, who I can never outsmart to. You were my mate and I want you there for the rest of my life.

Now you’re sleeping right beside me it’s been 6 years since we got married and I can’t help but see at your beautiful face. Then you spoke with your eyes still close….. “You know you really need to stop doing that, staring at me that like you’re seeing me for the first time. I’m not going anywhere because I know you will find me and I have nowhere to go without you” that brought a smile at my face…I was about to say; then the bedroom door creaked open and a toddler of 4 years came running….. Mummy!!!! Daddy!!!! We both smiled and let our son climb between us on the bed; he gave his sloppy kiss to both of us that always make our heart melt. 

The two important people in my life go back to sleep…Seeing them like this always makes me wonder what good did I do to deserve a family like this….I thank god for giving them to me. 

                  

                        And I will always cherish it….

-Unnati Bansal